Riding Updates

I know I haven't updated anything in regards to my riding. At first it was due to the crappy weather we had in Texas. But now it is just due to my growing frustrations with my lack of improvements on the bike. So when I'm off the bike I want to forget about the previous ride and not even think about the next. So that kind of explains why I started talking about my other ongoing projects on the SRR blog. But since we are on the subject, I will give you a run down of some of my possible problems on the bike.

First, I think I am completely over thinking every movement I make on the track. For example, I head into a turn mentally going over where my elbows, knees, feet need to be and sometimes which direction the wind in Saudi Arabia is blowing. So when I hit the turn I have nearly slowed down to a crawl. If this happens in a heavily rutted turn I am going to pop out of a rut. If I pop out I either land on my face and/or screw up my confidence for the upcoming jump.

Second, I can't stop comparing myself to other people on the track. Even if someone has been riding 5 years compared to my 11 months I will compare myself to them. If I think I fall short of them, most cases I do, this screws up my confidence for the day. For some people this would be their motivation to get their ass moving. For me, it's the opposite and I start riding like I'm out for a Sunday drive.

Another problem I hit, I think is more physical than mental. Or it could be a little of both. Prior to riding MX, I haven't participated in any physical activities since High School. Even in High School I wasn't a competitive person. So when I get on the track(Not CCCP, I hate this track as I haven't ever been able to get a good feel of the day track) I am able to run a limited amount of what I consider good laps. When I start to get tired I have not been able to push myself to go further. Mentally I tell myself I'm making mistakes from being tired and I don't want to end up taking a bad hit. I don't really think this is a bad thing but isn't this how you progress? By maning up and forgetting your fears for a second. My thought on this is that if I was able to find a physical trainer they would push me past my limits. Hopefully allowing me to be more mentally strong on the track.

There is more issue I can think about. But I'm not sure how to break it down. There are times when I wake up on a riding day and feel kind of loopy. These are the days I tell myself I shouldn't go out riding. But I go out anyway and end up with a crappy day. Killing any confidence I may have built in the previous ride. This just doesn't happen on riding days but really only the days I notice it. It's like I have temporary retardation or something. My motor skills are really whack. I try talking or completing a thought and its like I'm been deprived of oxygen. At work I don't really care about this problem. Work is something I don't enjoy. But when I go out riding I want the best possible performance and feel like I've made progress. Could this be a vitamin thing? or something else? I know this one may sound like garble but like I said I'm not sure how to break it down.

Anyway that is pretty much where my head has been with my riding. I am trying out some things to hopefully improve my physical and mental states.

Physically, I have started my diet again. I think I'm in the 4 or 5th week and I'm down about 18 pounds. I also want to find a place to start doing pilates and kickboxing.

Mentally, I have started taking a multi-vitamin today. I also started taking Strattera again in January. I have notice an improvement with keeping my eyes ahead of my tire. But it created some sleeping problems that I believe I'm now over. Hopefully next time I go out it will be after getting a good nights sleep.

Whether I know you or not, I would love to have any feedback on some of the problems I described.

Peace out!